Friday, October 19, 2012
We love movies in this house. We also love holidays. We decided to combine the two in these weeks leading up to Halloween and watch a selection of both adult and kid movies (10 each) that were Halloween themed or scary/creepy. I don't normally do scary movies but my husband loves them so we compromised and decided to watch a couple of them when the kids were asleep.
With 12 days to go we've gotten a few in:
Adult Halloween Movies 2012
#1: The Shining
We unfortunately only made it an hour into this one before it gave out. We borrowed it from the library and it just would not work after that mark no matter what we did. The first half of the movie was good, I'd really like to finish it at some point.
#2: Silence of the Lambs
I made it all the way through this one for the first time! I'd tried before and not succeeded. Definitely creepy but overall I was OK. The worst part for me was actually the grossness of the blood on Lector's face in the escape seen.
Kids Halloween Movies 2012
#1: Double, Double, Toil and Trouble
This was one of my younger brothers favourite movies when he was a kid. It was awesome to see the looks on my own kids faces as they watched it. A family favourite.
#2: It's the Great Pumpkin Charlie Brown
We've seen this before and loved it once again. Charlie Brown movies are always a hit in this house because we have our own Linus who loves seeing "himself" on screen.
First time seeing this one for us. It lived up to the hype I'd heard. A fun movie we all enjoyed.
#4: Tigger and Pooh: Hundred Acre Haunt
Normally Tigger and Pooh movies go over well here but this one fell a little flat. The kids just couldn't get into it.
Still on the list (some are pending availability from the library so it's a list subject to change):
Rocky Horror Picture Show
Haunted History of Halloween
Harry Potter and the Philosopher's Stone
Pooh's Heffalump Halloween Movie
We still need to pick 1 more movie for us adults to watch and 3 more for the whole family. Suggestions are welcome!
Monday, October 15, 2012
I remember the times that the pregnancy tests turned positive... the joy, the elation, the fear, the disappointment, the ups and downs. 11 sets of pregnancy tests.
I remember how I felt when I looked down at that positive test the very first time. I was 17 years old. I was taking all precautions and we'd talked through how we felt. I was sure I knew how I would feel. I was wrong. That positive test changed everything for me. I sobbed and sobbed and threw up and sobbed some more. I had twelve roller coaster days of emotion. Twelve days. At the time it stretched out and each day seemed a lifetime. And then it was over. I was bleeding and losing something I had been sure before it all happened that I didn't even want. I felt empty and broken and alone in grief. I was not grateful. I was hurting. I was not relieved. I was broken. I was not comforted by those who told me I was young and it was for the best. I was angry.
Everything about my pregnancies has shaped who I am and how I react to situations. Three times I've carried beautiful babies to term. Eight more times I've had my body fail me. My babies lost.
I am lucky enough to be able to share my stories with some people in my life. I'm lucky enough when I see a positive test to be able to share it with some of those who love me. Sadly there are those people in my life who I am always hesitant to share the news with. When I've been pregnant I want to celebrate that for as long as I get to. When a woman has a miscarriage the last thing you should say is that it is for the best and yet too many times that's exactly what I've heard. I've heard a variety of reasons why it's best that I not have that baby. It was never for the best. Two out of three of my living children came at so called bad times. I would not trade them for the world and they are WORTH it. Today in this day of remembrance I will talk about my babies with those who will listen. J and I will remember together. We will light candles with the kids later tonight again.
Today is a day of remembrance. I remember my babies and I remember the babies of my friends and family who didn't get to stay with us. I remember and I grieve with you all. I will never forget.